Save Button for Mind’s Eye

As I sit at my computer screen I glance at the Polaroids stuck on the base of the screen as I project myself into a place I crave to be. It’s not even a specific depiction in my mind, simply a feeling. A feeling of excitement, spontaneity, of freedom. How can such a steady desk chair cause so much unease? How can I feel like I don’t belong right now in a place filled with others my own age and education. I don’t crave it because I hate where I am right now by any means, I simply crave a place of contentment and fullness. Each employment opportunity provides me with more experience and yet it merely reinforces the fact that each place I’m sitting in a different chair I don’t belong.

In this Polaroid I’m surrounded with people, none of who I recognise. I’m far from everything familiar to me and yet I’ve never been more in touch with myself. No routine and yet more stability within. Just wholeheartedly being. I’m projected to a place where I’m constantly reminded that the meaning of life- is simply to live (thanks mister Watts). No complications, merely following the sparks that brings me more aligned with the things my soul needs. Things like photography, documenting. As I gaze at my perfectly proportioned fake plant on my desk, I’m filled with the light and life of those in the forest through Czech Republic. My mind feels a garden blooming with colour in an office of black and grey. These photos are my reminder I am on my way to the screen of the pc to ‘peace‘ me to a place behind the screen of a camera, to capture the essence of different beings, different cultures. On my way to seeing life through different lenses than just my Canon. And as I stare into the face of my watch I am faced with the reminder of a life where the concept of time is irrelevant.

We all need these reminders, these symbols. I keep mine close to me every day. When you look at yours do you feel saddened? Are you reminded that the place you’re in now is so far from where you need to be that you’re disheartened? Or are you excited, excited for what’s to come and where you’re headed? Knowing that you’re doing all you can to get yourself to that place. Closer to that feeling of inner-peace and contentment.